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Off The Cuff Utterances


"without ego there is never any
bondage nor any liberation "


ahamkar
EGO
Part - 1


That which does not go but here to stay. The strange interpretations of ego can tickle the funny bone. The grossest understanding of ego is arrogance or simply being selfish. But aham is anything which indicates 'i', including the 'i'.

As much an arrogant ego, there can be also the humble ego, sympathetic ego, lazy ego, ambitious ego, honest ego, sincere ego, etc. Especially including the one who claims ' I have no ego', which is just an ignorant ego. The worst(read as best)of all is the spiritual ego.

When you have a living body and functional mind, then you certainly have an ego. The problem starts only when you think you have to do away with your ego. Which is as good as doing away with the body and mind. Only dead bodies don't carry an ego or the sense of I. Because ego is the individual personality in you and you will be utterly a misfit to relate to this world without the personality or ego.

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pending upon the tendencies, one may want to do away with the ego in a particular manner. Some use the language of erasing or eliminating, some destroying, some wiping, some cleaning, some sublimating, some shedding, some rising above and some, which is the most brutal of all, killing the ego.

Disciple : I want to kill my ego !
Master : What is ego ?
Disciple : the sense of I !
Master : Then who wants to kill your ego ?
Disciple : I think it is ' i ' who wants to kill !
Master : Its a crime to commit suicide,
so keep quiet and do your work.

To say, 'I have an ego' is wrong. But it should be 'I'm the ego'. Nobody can have an ego. Unlike you have a car, house and family. Ego is you. It is not independent of you. Everything in creation is ego. All the planets, sun, mountains, rivers, jungles, animals, plants, human beings, you and I, all are many different egos. Because they all can be defined and described and attributed. They all have a shape and name.

Anything born and can be dead in particular time is ego. Anything manifest as life is ego. Because all that manifest has certain personality, character and attribution. Like big, small, fat,slim, good and bad. Even the clothes have certain quality or the buildings have certain character. The automobiles have qualities. But interestingly, only the human being (human ego, you) can sense this ego and the rest cannot.

That's why you are special and that's perhaps why you are in trouble most of the times. The trouble you face in life stems from the fact that you have not accepted you as ego. You always wanting to get rid of this ego, especially in the times of crisis. Sad is the plight of people who renounce life in order to drown their sorrows along with their ego, because they believe, ego to be the cause of their sorrow and they want to dump it deep in an unknown place, like they dump the nuclear waste.

You will mute any possibility of spiritual progress, if you are at war with this ego. you should know that any spiritual progress or enlightenment is meant only for this ego. Besides ego, there is none who needs spiritual practice or awakening. It is the ego that wants to be spiritual and wants to attain enlightenment too. Your fight with the ego is like slapping yourself hoping to get some wisdom. Your avoiding or ignoring the ego is like you don't buy a ticket but still want to board the flight.

Disciple : I have decided to avoid using the term 'I'
Master : Why so ?
Disciple : Because it shows I have ego.
Master : Excellent ! But who is avoiding ?
Disciple : Of course, I only am avoiding 'I' !
Master : Instead of 'you' avoiding 'you', cant you accept ?
Disciple :What happens if I don't accept?
Master : You are slapping yourself, which is bondage !
Disciple : What if i accept?
Master : You are embracing yourself, which is freedom !

Even an enlightened being has an ego. It is simply an enlightened ego. Enlightenment does not take away the unique ego of that individual. He is still having his unique lifestyle and expression. If not, Krishna, Christ and Buddha should have behaved and lived similarly.

So what should happen exactly ? First of all, stop taking pride in ego bashing. That's the worst expression of ego. Second of all, understand that you as ego cannot survive alone and it needs the support system. Third of all, connect yourself as ego to the hidden self known as consciousness. Your meditation is meant for uniting you as ego with your inner self or consciousness.

Like the bulb is plugged into the socket. Bulb is the external self or ego, socket is the atman or Consciousness. Electricity is the divinity. The moment bulb is plugged in, electricity flows through the socket and Bingo ! the bulb burns bright.

When you plugged into your consciousness, the highest miracle happened to you. This is all what you need to do in your spiritual pursuit. The rest will follow suit. You will not even be bothered to know what follows. But for now, Shut Up, Sit Down and Plug In !